I wonder what you sound like when you'e not wearing words.

Thanks for you love and suport jeanne, ill try to keep posting things you can enjoy and relate to.

So i was looking over some old blog entries and i used to blog all the time...and now i dont do it so much. i love[d] blogging but the reason i love[d] it is because of the feedback i get from you guys, so id like some more, if thats not too much to ask.

prom is friday. im excited. excited, but not ready. lol

i know this is gonna sound so wierd so bare with me, but lately ive realing been craving a significant other. i think what i really want to knwo is that im good enough, and i think that being in a relationship would tell me that...i know its werird and messed up but w/e.

so i guess in the end im just craving attention.... does that make me horrible person. i mean i know im annoyed when people insist that all eyes be on them...so why am i insisting that all eyes are on me??? i dont want all eyes...i want the eyes of one boy who loves me. that;s enough. the way i feel... it's like... being in a room with a million people, and i feel like if i died, not one single person would even notice.

i hate this feeling. hate it hate it hate it.



often, i find myself wanting to be alone.
but my biggest fear is that i will be.

take me away.

ahhh.

IB exas are over...

so teachers are pileing on tons and tons of work.

nationals rehersals are everyday now.

stil prom date-less.

i dont know what i want in suessical anymore.

my lifes kinda depressing.

except for the fact that i know the coolest kids ever. and i call them my friends.




i have just been in really weird moods lately. i think i'll blame them on hormones, cause thats much easier than trying to explain them. i feel like... like im that crooked little heart that you drew in the corner of your paper in second grade. The one that got scribbled out because it wasn't quite right. there wasnt really anything wrong with it...but for somereason no one really wants it, no one wants you to draw one on their paper eaither. it doesnt claim to be perfect but its ok...isnt? ecause no one else seems to think its ok...but there really isnt anything wrong with it is there?




The knot in my throat blocks
all the words I wish I could say.

Something's gotta make me feel alive.

I WENT TO A RELIENT K CONCERT LAST NITE
IT WAS BECCA'S SURPRISE B DAY PRESENT TO ME
IT WAS AMAZING.

so my birthday is tomarrow and its kinda anti-climatic..becasue im not having a party or anything. its so sad. oh well. hopefully im gonna have a pool party this summer...although my mom keeps saying its not gonna happen so i guess we'll see.


in other news, i still dont have a prom date :(

any takers? :P

Prom Date Application ♥
fill it ouT

Name:
Age:
Height:
Hometown:
Hair Color:
Eye Color:
Are you really a boy?
Do you know who I am?
Piercings/Tattoos?
Which do you prefer blondes,redheads, or brunettes?
Are you a heartbreaker?
Are you funny?
Write in a pickup line:
Are you into music?
If so which genre?
Are you a musician?
Do you sing?
Would you a date a younger or older girl?
Can you dance?
Are you friends with mostly girls or guys?
Do you smoke?
What about a girl impresses you?
What color is most attractive on the girl of your dreams?
Are you shy?
What do you do after school?
What is your best quality?
Are you adeventerous or practical?
What do you want to be when you grow up?
Would you watch a sappy movie with a girl?
Do you have a best friend?
Why did you fill out this application?

it's along way down

im so stressed and so angry and have so much pent up emotion that i dont know what to do but sit here and cry. and i know its not really helping so shut up. it is helping bc its helping me. its like drug addicts, yea doing the drug more doesnt help but it makes reality go away for a while, and that makes it better...at least fro now.

Tell me I'm your sunshine

so its been a long time.

my show was amazing, and to all my friends who put aside everything from their busy lives to come and see me, i thnak you from the bottom of my heart. i always hear tons of people i dont know tell me how great i am, but to be able to make you guys laugh for 3 hours, thats what i live for. so thanks again.

and to those of you who didnt make it, you missed out. but next time, next time.

lately i have been facing alot of challenges in my life. and when i used to have hard times i used to get all depressed and junk...but not now. i look forward to the challenges, i embrace them, i live for them. i guess thats part of growing up? besides, they say that the greatest challenge in life is to find someone who knows all your flaws and differences and mistakes, yet still loves everything about you, and ive already done that.


ok so heres the question of the day, first person to give me the right answer wins a prize !!! :Where are Chinese gooseberries from?


Today's Quote

Use your imagination not to scare yourself to death but to inspire yourself to life.

-Adele Brookman

Guys Like That You're Charming

You're the girl most guys can't get out of their heads Even if they met you on a bad hair day :-) You just seem to "click" with everyone you meet So even if a guy forgets about you for a second... his friends haven't!

What Do Guys Like About You?

Your Famous Movie Kiss is from Romeo + Juliet

"Has my heart loved 'till now? Forswear it, sight! For I never saw a true beauty 'till this night."

What Famous Movie Kiss Are You?

***You Belong in New York City***


You're the energetic, ambitious type.
And only NYC is fast enough for you.
Maybe you'll set yourself up with a killer career
Or simply take in all the city has to offer.


What City Do You Belong In?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatcitydoyoubelonginquiz/

You Belong in the Upper West Side

You have what it takes to be successful, but not snooty. That's why you belong in the New York of Sex and the City and Seinfeld!

Where Should Your Inner New Yorker Live?

What Your Dreams Mean...

Your dreams seem to show that you're a very well adjusted and happy person. Overall, you are very content in your life. You have a very vivid imagination and a rich creative mind. You secretly want to hide your dreams from your waking mind.

What Do Your Dreams Mean?

You Should Learn Chinese

Surprised? You shouldn't be - Chinese is perfect for an ambitious person like you. You're a natural entrepreneur, and a billion people are waiting to do business with you!

What Language Should You Learn?

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are powerful, passionate, and dominant. You have a vision of how things should be, and you do your best to make things happen. People rely on you for your strength. You are a rock to many. Underneath it all, you aren't so sure about your passions. So many ideas spark your interest, it is hard for you to get behind a select few. However, you see indecision as a sign of weakness. So you pursue your goals full force - no matter how foolish they turn out to be.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

***Your Dosha is Kapha***


Calm and grounded, you are not prone to mood swings or anger.
However, once you do get angry, it takes a lot to cool you down.
You tend to think a little slower than most people, but your logic is astounding.
Overall, you very loyal and trustworthy. You're not scared of being who you really are.

With friends: You enjoy their company, but often listen more than talk

In love: You crave connection and affection. It's hard for you to be single.

To achieve more balance: Exercise vigorously (especially in the sun) and let go of attachments.


What's Your Dosha?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyourdoshaquiz

Well it's over and done even though you're the one

im such a super nova girl.

stargazing megafast

i'll hit you like a cosmic blast

i've given you a technicolor world

putting you in overdrive

speed of light you're so alive

could i be your supernova girl?

interplanetary megastellar hydrostatic

there's no gravity between us

our love is automatic

zoom zoom zoom make your heart go boom boom your superNova girl

zoom zoom zoom make your heart go boom boom your superNova girl

visions of my pretty face

send you into hyperspace

caught up in a planetary whirl

breathing i give you air

you're living off my solar flare

could i be your supernova girl?

the sky is dark now, but it's the best dark I ever had

so, to explain my title, tings arent really going that well lately but weirdly im ok with it. its like i know that in the end evrything will turn out how its supposed to, and i guess god just keeps reminding me of his purpose for me. im not sure what it is, but i know there is one, which is very comforting.

and tomorrow, I know,
Will be rainy at best.
And the forecast, I know,
Is that I'll be depressed.

Because on and off,
The clouds have fought
for control over the sky

And lately the weather
Has been so Bi-polar
And Consequently so have I

And now I'm sunny with a High
of 75
Since You took my heavy heart
And made it light

And its funny how you find
You enjoy your life
When you're happy to be alive

And the temperature is freezing
And then, after dark,
There is a cold frost sweeping
In over my heart

And we might break up
If I don't wake up to the sun

Sunny with a High of 75
Since You took my heavy heart
And made it light (made it light)

And its funny how you find
You enjoy your life
When you're happy to be...
Alive









Today's Quote

Adversity is another way to measure the greatness of individuals. I never had a crisis that didn't make me stronger.

-Lou Holtz

Your Heart Is Green

Love completes you, but that doesn't mean you seek it out. When love comes your way, you integrate it peacefully into the rest of you life. Your flirting style: Laid back Your lucky first date: Walking around aimlessly and talking Your dream lover: Is both enthusiastic and calm What you bring to relationships: Balance

What Color Heart Do You Have?

Your Aura is Blue

Spiritual and calm, you tend to live a quiet but enriching life. You are very giving of yourself. And it's hard for you to let go of relationships. The purpose of your life: showing love to other people Famous blues include: Angelina Jolie, the Dali Lama, Oprah Careers for you to try: Psychic, Peace Corps Volunteer, Counselor

What Color Is Your Aura?

To befriend others we must first befriend ourselves

when life gives you a thousand reasons to cry... show life that you have a million reasons to smile back.

ok.
so we all know that i really didnt mean alot of what i said in that last post. it just took me a while to remember who i am i guess. but i have good friends to remind me. like bekah and aly and julia and ms diane. and like bishop.

so i was sitting in TOK class on friday...and this guy bishop (thats what i call him, its his last name) comes over to me and starts singing a song. "hey matanda, you know that song? la lalalalala la la lalalala? what si called? come on, i know you know what its called.." but of course i was still in a mad mood at this point. "i dont know bishop." he could tell right away what was bothering me, so he started to walk away...but then he turned around, came over to me, and gave me a huge hug and he wispered in my ear; "guess what? he laughed yesterday. he laughed! matt laughed! he smiled, and he made a joke that didnt make any sense! he laughed amanda. we are all gonna be ok." and then he turned around to walk away again, and as i sat down he yelled to me; "Amanda!" "what?" "just remember, you're a song written by the hands of God!"

ive been ok ever since.
and im gonna be ok from now on.
because i like being ok better than being not ok.















Sometimes you got to lose something good to get something better

she needs everything that will destroy her

i dont know how i am going to do it. this whole life thing i mean. its too hard. too too hard. and i know what im suposed to think. im suposd to think that i cant do it alone but god will haelp me. but i cant help but think that i dont want god to help me. because if hes wasting time on me, i feel like he isnt helping the people you really need him. like matt.

my freind matt's mom died sunday. the funeral was today. not only is this tearing matt up, but its tearing me up, and its tearing all of our friends up. Can you imagine being inn school all day long with rooms full of kids on the verge of tears? its one of the most painful things i have evr done. and to see mr. tough guy, and i mean mr. has-played-varsity-football-since-freshamn-year and mr. has-broken-3-ribs-and-never-ever-showed-pain-because-pain-is-a-weakness...to see him look like he is never going to smile again, and then to have him fall apart, sobbing, in your arms???? i never want it to happen again. and i cant make it stop.

meanwhile, i get accepting into Vocal Ensemble (the 20 best vocalists in my school of 2700) and improv team (the 15 best kids at improv (whos line is it anyway))...

its.not.fair.

i dont want it to happen. but it is. and i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. I HATE IT. and i scream this at god, but he doesnt listen.

all those pretty things you love

CONCERNED ABOUT TOO MANY CARBS IN YOUR DIET?

For those of you who watch what you eat, here's the final word on nutrition and health.
It's a relief to know the truth after all those conflicting nutritional studies.

1. The Japanese eat very little fat and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.

2. The Mexicans eat a lot of fat and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.

3. The Chinese drink very little red wine and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.

4. The Italians drink a lot of red wine and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.

5. The Germans drinka lot of beers and eat lots of sausages and fats and suffer fewer heart

attacks than Americans.

CONCLUSION

Eat and drink what you like. Speaking English is apparently what kills you.

Your Eyes Should Be Hazel

Your eyes reflect: Intellect and sensuality What's hidden behind your eyes: Subtle manipulation

What Color Should Your Eyes Be?

You Are 20% Cynical

Cynical? Not even close! If anything, you're a bit naive. Overall, you enjoy life and try not to be paranoid. Even if you've been burned before.

How Cynical Are You?

"There must be millions of people all over the world who don't get love letters. I could be their leader!" -Charlie Brown

Your Scholastic Strength Is Innovating

You are the master of new ideas, techniques, and ways of looking at things. You are talented at structuring thoughts, decision making, clarifying, and making deadlines. You should major in: Marketing Psychology Desgin Cognitive Science Economics Photography

What Should You Major In?

Do you really want to know the truth? I think aout you everyday and not just everyday, but all day everyday. I can't get you our of my head and it hurts
because I know I can't have you.

I'm shutting my doors and putting my walls back up

so yeah. this weekend i had alot of fun [[CULT HERO]] [[RUN PENTAGON RUN]] but i also learned alot, and at first, it was things i didnt really wanna know. but now that i know them, i think im all the better for it.

specifically,

so one of my really good friends and i were talking;;;

her: i know why guys never like you.
me: oh really? enlighten me.
her: you're too high maintenence.
me: what???? ME, high maintenence? you have got to be kidding me.
her: well not high maintenence in the you-take-too-long-to-get-ready and you-only-care-about-your-appeareance kinda way. its just that, you know exactly what you want. you have this idea of who you want to spend the rest of your life with and i think guys see that and are afraid to get too close to you; because they think that they are going to fall short of your expectations and hurt you somehow.
i mean, you just know what you want, and im not saying thats a bad thing.
me: im not asking for perfection...
her: i know that, but do they?

so...yeah.

anyways...

so i kinda went out on a limb this weekend...and it didnt work out. im not really worked up about it or anything but i guess you could say that i am closing my curtains & removing the welcome mat. im not just blocking everything out again. but its just that it's so much easier to let it go than feeling something... I'm scared to death to find out what he really thinks of me. And maybe I'm just scared to face the things I feel. It's just easier to walk away from everything. but on the other hand- if you know me at all- you know that i dislike taking the easy way out...so i dunno, i just guess we will have to see where i go from here.















Today's Quote

The world is not moved only by the mighty shoves of the heroes, but also by the aggregate of the tiny pushes of each honest worker.

-Helen Keller

You Are A Poplar Tree

People tend to look up to you, and it's a bit lonely at the top. Inside, you are not always self confident, but you show great courage. Mature and organized, you are reliable in any situation. You tend to have an artistic or philosophical outlook on life. You are very choosy in love and take partnership seriously.

What's Your Celtic Horoscope?

Well, it seems to me that the best relationships, the ones that last, are frequently the ones that are rooted in friendship. You know, one day you look at the person & you see something more than you did the night before, like a switch has been flicked somewhere, & the person who was just a friend is suddenly the only person you can ever imagine yourself with.

that's what makes us human

Can You Open My Safe?

1st Number:

how old am i?

2nd Number:

how many siblings do i have?

3rd Number:

what month was i born in?

	Enter Combination: 1st Number 2nd Number 3rd Number
Make Your Own Safe - Click Here

so valentines day is tomarrow.
this year im focusing on loving myself.
not in a conceided way or anything but contrary to popular beleif, im really not that fond of myself, so i decided to change that.

does he ignore his friends, just to talk to me? does he wait to see my smile? does he think to himself ... "oh gosh here she comes"? xoxo i guess its possible, cause after all, Love that is not madness is not Love....but i won't give up me to be part of him.

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget. You are a very grounded, responsible, and realistic person. People may not want to hear the truth from you, but they're going to get it. You believe that people see you as larger than life and important. While this is true, they also think you're a bit full of yourself. Your near future is calm, relaxing, and pretty much what you want. And it's something you've been anticipating for a while now. For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

Blessed are the flexible, for they shall not be bent out of shape.

-Anonymous
















- Get Your Own














It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.

-Oriah Mountain Dreamer

So i turn up the music and try to block out the screams

this week was really really hard, for a number of reasons, but i dont want to get into them rite now bc im in a good mood, and thats what this post is all about...

how i can be in the worst mood ever but you guys lift me rite back up. you make me so happy and give me a get away when i need it most. thank you for that. you'll never understand how much that means to me.

you guys must be my shooting stars;; cause everything I wished for, is everything you are. you always make sure i hold my head up high, even if on the inside i'm about to cry. when im with you i can pretend that nothing's wrong at all. like if i can't see it, it's not there. but then again you also let me realize that this is life & it's not fair. so i cn just fight the past with all my might. Hide under the covers and cry silently. Spend those nights out with my friends. Smile through the toughest times. i will get through the present. And then in the future... i plan to look back on now and smile... and then ill call ya'll up...and we will all go play soccer, ok?

You Are a Chihuahua Puppy

Small, high strung, and loyal. You do best in the city with a adults - young kids could crush you!

What Breed of Puppy Are You?

You Are Peeps

You're the type that's more likely to play with your food than actually eat it.

What Easter Candy Are You?

the future lies before you

i know you read it.

and i hope it mae you happy...like i hope it was a releif for you. because its true...and i think now it will be just that much easier to be friends. which is what i really want.

as far as this new guy...i dont want to say too much just yet. because hes one of my favorite people and best friends and i dont want to mess that up. but i dunno, im just having one of those puppy love type crush things ya know? like how I get the best feeling in the world when hes says "hi" to me or even smiles at me because I know, even if it's just for a second, I crossed his mind.

laugh long. smile sweet. party hard.

TLink1125 (8:46:04 PM): only one is alot of work

sassybackup (8:46:42 PM): thats good i guess
sassybackup (8:46:53 PM): which one?

TLink1125 (8:47:14 PM): engineering cultures

sassybackup (8:47:32 PM): um yeah that sounds hard
sassybackup (8:49:38 PM): my hardest class is...well none of them are really hard, its just that theres alota stuff to do ya know?

TLink1125 (8:49:52 PM): yup i know

sassybackup (8:50:43 PM): i knew you knew

TLink1125 (8:51:06 PM): well i knew that you knew that i knew

sassybackup (8:51:41 PM): well that just goes to show ya how well we understand one another i guess

TLink1125 (8:52:30 PM): or we're psychic

sassybackup (8:53:21 PM): well evryone knows that I'M psychic...but YOU? im not so sure about that....what am i thinking right now?

TLink1125 (8:53:42 PM): you are thinking that im not psychic
TLink1125 (8:53:49 PM): jeez that was easy
TLink1125 (8:53:56 PM): what am i thinking

sassybackup (8:55:03 PM): hmmm... youre thinking "i wonder what shes gonna say im thinking"

TLink1125 (8:55:11 PM): nope

sassybackup (8:55:17 PM): darn. what was it?

TLink1125 (8:55:25 PM): she better not be faking
TLink1125 (8:55:36 PM): hahahahahahahaahahahahahahaha
TLink1125 (8:55:38 PM): i win

sassybackup (8:55:55 PM): maybe i wasnt really thinking that you werent psychic

TLink1125 (8:56:07 PM): you were
TLink1125 (8:56:10 PM): i know

sassybackup (8:56:29 PM): maybe i just wanted you to think that that was what i was thinking bc i didnt want you to know what i was acually thinking
sassybackup (8:57:16 PM): actually*

TLink1125 (8:57:36 PM): right.....then you would be psychic

sassybackup (8:58:12 PM): and then you dont win...we tie

TLink1125 (8:59:01 PM): fine

sassybackup (8:59:28 PM): why yes i am fine, thanks for noticing.

















ok so im not "over" you. ill always love you. but im ready to move on. because someone else goves me hope [[♥]]. after all, A truly happy person is one who can enjoy the scenery on a detour.

let me explain, missing someone gets easier every day, because even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, it's one day closer to the next time you will. and im ready to miss you, without dwelling on you, because someone else is starting to occupy my heart.

and yes, to tell my new love how i feel might take a while because i have trust issues but if you were me, you would too.

i think that the miracle of love is that we all just kind of wander around here aimlessly searching for someone who understands us... and yet anyone could understnad you, if you would just give them the chance.

I'm writing for you

sometimes hearts are vacant. sometimes words don't work. and sometimes love will find you when you least expect it. and if there was only one word to describe be, it would be hopeful.

hopeful: having or manifesting or inspiring hope. full of hope; expressing hope. exciting hope; promising advantage or success. a person who shows promise or aspires to success.

thats what i want to be. hopeful. a person who shows promise.








its been a hard week. my uncle larry died. i dont do greif well. i hide it. i dont mourn. i laugh. and that doesnt make it better. one of these days im gonna explode. i had a show, no one wanted to come cept becca and matt. thats y i love them. just all in all it was a really hard week. lots of pressure. "No pressure, no diamonds."
-Mary Case. i wanna be a diamond. i really do. i wanna be his diamond.















Today's Quote

The U.S. Constitution doesn't guarantee happiness, only the pursuit of it. You have to catch up with it yourself.

-Benjamin Franklin

You Are Marge Simpson

You're a devoted family member who loves unconditionally. Sometimes, though, you dream about living a wild secret life! You will be remembered for: your good cooking and evading the police Your life philosophy: "You should listen to your heart, and not the voices in your head."

The Simpsons Personality Test

Caffe Vanilla Frappuccino

Smooth and sweet, you fit in to almost any crowd. No one would suspect you of being a coffee tweaker!

What Flavor Frappuccino Are You?

Your Inner Child Is Happy

You see life as simple, and simple is a very good thing. You're cheerful and upbeat, taking everything as it comes. And you decide not to worry, even when things look bad. You figure there's just so many great things to look forward to.

How Is Your Inner Child?

You Are Likely a First Born

At your darkest moments, you feel guilty. At work and school, you do best when you're researching. When you love someone, you tend to agree with them often. In friendship, you are considerate and compromising. Your ideal careers are: business, research, counseling, promotion, and speaking. You will leave your mark on the world with discoveries, new information, and teaching people to dream.

The Birth Order Predictor

I want to be the girl that makes you say "She's the prettiest girl in the whole world. and the reason she's pretty is because she's mine."

i say this like its no big deal. Like its nothing. But its everything

ok so let me start off by quoting jason, or at least, who i think was jason,
"focus on all the things you would plan to do with your possible significant other then go find him, if he likes you you're set, if not work hard to win his affection...then live happily ever after. you can do it! i know you can!"

the problem with this is that i cant convince myself that i havent already found my one-and-only. ive tried hard to win his affection but i just came off as really creepy, so now i dont know what to do, it is so hard for me to talk to him in person, in fact, i just cant do it, and he probobally thinks thats its weird but i cant help thinking that if i say the wrong thing then im going to chase him away for good and i would not be able to handle that. anyways...



and yes. beleive me, i understand that i should take some chances. i should risk it all. i should close my eyes and jump because it might be worth the fall, but i did that once... and it backfired, and i cannot bring myself to do it again. i mean, i know myself pretty well, and i certainly know myself well wnough to know that I laugh at the stupidest things & always say the wrong things at the wrong time. I cry for no reason & sometimes I get jealous easily. I don't have it all together. But that's just me. and i know he doesnt like "just me" so untill i can like grwo up or whatever, i just need him to stick around, and if i really go for it, that wont happen, ill just chase him away. and at times he confuses me so much. It's like he smiles at me & I can't get him out of my head. and ive fallen for many a boy before, but not like this.

so untill i can grow up and he can fianlly love me (and yes i can wait, just watch me) ill be crawling into bed barely making it through. days will be going by and i will still think of him. He's the one I want to see when I wake up in the morning & before I close my eyes at night. i cant help that. i cant control it, it just is. i cant convince myself that God gave him to me to just take him away again. i dont know why hes so different eaither. it think maybe its because when i found him, i wasnt looking for the boy who could be the best boyfriend... i was looking for the boy who could be my best friend, and he was for a while. i guess the winter makes makes me laugh a little slower, makes me talk a little lower, about the things i couldn't show him, and it's been a long december, and im just realizing that there's no reason to believe it, but maybe, just maybe, maybe this year will be better than the last. I wish I could have one more chance with him. I've never felt so close with someone before. I guess I need you baby.

You Are Batman

Billionaire playboy by day. Saving the world by night. And you're not even a true superhero. Just someone with a lot of expensive toys!

What Superhero Are You?

Today's Quote

Self-trust is the first secret of success.

-Ralph Waldo Emerson

You Should Be a Dancer

You have a unique combination of grace and athleticism.. Whether you become a salsa dancer or a ballerina, you need to get dancing!

What Sort of Artist Should You Be?

So tell me,
why do I always go back to you?

if only the good things in life lasted longer

ill admit that im a little upset about how things went down this christmas. at least in regars to him, but i promised myself i wouldnt vent to anyone.
because i know my problems aren't important and no one is listening. so much for that right? im crying out inside; but hey, im beautiful, right? thats all i hard that night. i know it wasnt true, and even if it were, thats not what i wanted to hear. i wanted to be told that i was loved, not that i was beautiful. and no, its not the same thing, in fact, its totaly different. if only i didn't have to say goodbye to him everytime i said hello to him. maybe things would be differnet... at least i like to think they would. i know one thing for sure, im not giving up. not yet. besides, i couldnt if i tried.


Today's Quote

Everything works out in the end. If it hasn't worked out, it's not the end.

-Unknown

I'm going to say it straight-out:
No one can compare to you.

for a MINUTE with you

This is my December. These are my barren trees. This is me pretending this is all I need.









Today's Quote

I am not afraid of storms, for I am learning how to sail my ship.

-Louisa May Alcott

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Matanda!

1. The water in oceans is four times less salty than the water in Matanda.
2. A sixteenth century mathematician lost his nose in a duel over his love for Matanda, and wore a silver replacement for the rest of his life!
3. If you lace Matanda from the inside to the outside, the fit will be snugger around your big toe!
4. The ace of spades in a playing card deck symbolizes Matanda!
5. The only planet that rotates on its side is Matanda!
6. An average beaver can cut down Matanda every year!
7. The smelly fluid secreted by skunks is colloquially known as Matanda.
8. Matanda can turn her stomach inside out!
9. If your ear itches, this means that someone is talking about Matanda.
10. Duelling is legal in Paraguay as long as both parties are Matanda.

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You Should Get a Tattoo of Initials

Modern and expressive You're proud of who you are (or who you love)!

What Tattoo Should You Get?

The process of growing up is nothing more than
figuring out what doors haven't yet been slammed in your face.













It Just Takes Some Time
Jimmy Eat World

Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out or
looked down on.
Just try your best, try everything you can.
And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away.
It just takes some time,
little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine,
everything (everything) will be alright (alright).
Hey, you know they're all the same.
You know you're doing better on your own, so don't buy in.
Live right now.
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else.
It just takes some time,
little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine,
everything (everything) will be alright (alright).
It just takes some time,
little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine,
everything (everything) will be alright (alright).
Hey, don't write yourself off yet.
It's only in your head you feel left out or
looked down on.
Just do your best, do everything you can.
And don't you worry what the bitter hearts are gonna say.
It just takes some time,
little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine,
everything (everything) will be alright (alright).
It just takes some time,
ittle girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine,
everything (everything) will be alright (alright).













Always keep your words soft and sweet, just in case you have to eat them

cast list

i dont feel like talking about it so im just gonna post it exactly how it was posted.:

"Reno Sweeney Michelle Lilley

Hope Harcourt Susan Wilmes

Evangeline Harcourt Jill Keys

Lord Evelyn Oakleigh Nick Carter

Elisha J. Whitney Keith Rafferty

Billy Crocker Drew Martin

Moonface Martin Daniel Lonsbury

Bonnie LaTour Lisa Fritts

Reno’s Angels

Purity Kim Wilhelm

Chastity Allie Gauthier

Charity Jaime Hamilton

Virtue Stephanie Stephens

Patience Stephanie Huff

Faith Cortnee Doll

Grace Lauren King

Joy Brittany Huff

Bishop Henry T. Dobson Josh Jordan

Mildred Price Crystal Clark

Captain Sierra Hoover

Ship’s Purser Brittany Taylor

Ship’s Steward Miguel Mattia-Uribe

Convert 1 Cameron Lee

Convert 2 Mike Argilan

Reporter Casey Boehm

Photographer Clayton Northcraft



Sailors

Lejerian Williams

Brandon Sukeforth

Andrew Scott

Rebecca Butler

Jessica Clark

Girl 1 Annie Boyer

Girl 2 Kelsey McKain

Girl 3 Cherelle Smith



Passengers

Katelyn Anderson, Kaitlyn Kivi, Amanda Matousek, Stephanie Bernholz, Kyle Gunderson, Alex Sharek, Elizabeth Durrant, Sabrina Repp, Samantha Nielson, Kristyn Nemethvargo



Once again, you guys made this decision very difficult. Don't forget. . .mandatory meeting on Wednesday. You'll find out what numbers and scenes you are in, etc. Thanks all. . .you are all amazing."















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Josh Turner - Would You Go With Me Lyrics

Would you go with me if we rolled down streets of fire

Would you hold on to me tighter as the summer sun got higher

If we roll from town to town and never shut it down



Would you go with me if we were lost in fields of clover

Would we walk even closer until the trip was over

And would it be okay if I didn't know the way



If I gave you my hand would you take it

And make me the happiest man in the world

If I told you my heart couldn't beat one more minute without
you, girl

Would you accompany me to the edge of the sea

Let me know if you're really a dream

I love you so, so would you go with me



[Instrumental]



Would you go with me if we rode the clouds together

Could you not look down forever

If you were lighter than a feather

Oh, and if I set you free, would you go with me



If I gave you my hand would you take it

And make me the happiest man in the world

If I told you my heart couldn't beat one more minute without
you, girl

Would you accompany me to the edge of the sea

Help me tie up the ends of a dream

I gotta know, would you go with me

I love you so, so would you go with me































and that's when I realized; I didn't stand a chance