the future lies before you

i know you read it.

and i hope it mae you happy...like i hope it was a releif for you. because its true...and i think now it will be just that much easier to be friends. which is what i really want.

as far as this new guy...i dont want to say too much just yet. because hes one of my favorite people and best friends and i dont want to mess that up. but i dunno, im just having one of those puppy love type crush things ya know? like how I get the best feeling in the world when hes says "hi" to me or even smiles at me because I know, even if it's just for a second, I crossed his mind.

laugh long. smile sweet. party hard.

TLink1125 (8:46:04 PM): only one is alot of work

sassybackup (8:46:42 PM): thats good i guess
sassybackup (8:46:53 PM): which one?

TLink1125 (8:47:14 PM): engineering cultures

sassybackup (8:47:32 PM): um yeah that sounds hard
sassybackup (8:49:38 PM): my hardest class is...well none of them are really hard, its just that theres alota stuff to do ya know?

TLink1125 (8:49:52 PM): yup i know

sassybackup (8:50:43 PM): i knew you knew

TLink1125 (8:51:06 PM): well i knew that you knew that i knew

sassybackup (8:51:41 PM): well that just goes to show ya how well we understand one another i guess

TLink1125 (8:52:30 PM): or we're psychic

sassybackup (8:53:21 PM): well evryone knows that I'M psychic...but YOU? im not so sure about that....what am i thinking right now?

TLink1125 (8:53:42 PM): you are thinking that im not psychic
TLink1125 (8:53:49 PM): jeez that was easy
TLink1125 (8:53:56 PM): what am i thinking

sassybackup (8:55:03 PM): hmmm... youre thinking "i wonder what shes gonna say im thinking"

TLink1125 (8:55:11 PM): nope

sassybackup (8:55:17 PM): darn. what was it?

TLink1125 (8:55:25 PM): she better not be faking
TLink1125 (8:55:36 PM): hahahahahahahaahahahahahahaha
TLink1125 (8:55:38 PM): i win

sassybackup (8:55:55 PM): maybe i wasnt really thinking that you werent psychic

TLink1125 (8:56:07 PM): you were
TLink1125 (8:56:10 PM): i know

sassybackup (8:56:29 PM): maybe i just wanted you to think that that was what i was thinking bc i didnt want you to know what i was acually thinking
sassybackup (8:57:16 PM): actually*

TLink1125 (8:57:36 PM): right.....then you would be psychic

sassybackup (8:58:12 PM): and then you dont win...we tie

TLink1125 (8:59:01 PM): fine

sassybackup (8:59:28 PM): why yes i am fine, thanks for noticing.

















ok so im not "over" you. ill always love you. but im ready to move on. because someone else goves me hope [[♥]]. after all, A truly happy person is one who can enjoy the scenery on a detour.

let me explain, missing someone gets easier every day, because even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, it's one day closer to the next time you will. and im ready to miss you, without dwelling on you, because someone else is starting to occupy my heart.

and yes, to tell my new love how i feel might take a while because i have trust issues but if you were me, you would too.

i think that the miracle of love is that we all just kind of wander around here aimlessly searching for someone who understands us... and yet anyone could understnad you, if you would just give them the chance.

I'm writing for you

sometimes hearts are vacant. sometimes words don't work. and sometimes love will find you when you least expect it. and if there was only one word to describe be, it would be hopeful.

hopeful: having or manifesting or inspiring hope. full of hope; expressing hope. exciting hope; promising advantage or success. a person who shows promise or aspires to success.

thats what i want to be. hopeful. a person who shows promise.








its been a hard week. my uncle larry died. i dont do greif well. i hide it. i dont mourn. i laugh. and that doesnt make it better. one of these days im gonna explode. i had a show, no one wanted to come cept becca and matt. thats y i love them. just all in all it was a really hard week. lots of pressure. "No pressure, no diamonds."
-Mary Case. i wanna be a diamond. i really do. i wanna be his diamond.















Today's Quote

The U.S. Constitution doesn't guarantee happiness, only the pursuit of it. You have to catch up with it yourself.

-Benjamin Franklin

You Are Marge Simpson

You're a devoted family member who loves unconditionally. Sometimes, though, you dream about living a wild secret life! You will be remembered for: your good cooking and evading the police Your life philosophy: "You should listen to your heart, and not the voices in your head."

The Simpsons Personality Test

Caffe Vanilla Frappuccino

Smooth and sweet, you fit in to almost any crowd. No one would suspect you of being a coffee tweaker!

What Flavor Frappuccino Are You?

Your Inner Child Is Happy

You see life as simple, and simple is a very good thing. You're cheerful and upbeat, taking everything as it comes. And you decide not to worry, even when things look bad. You figure there's just so many great things to look forward to.

How Is Your Inner Child?

You Are Likely a First Born

At your darkest moments, you feel guilty. At work and school, you do best when you're researching. When you love someone, you tend to agree with them often. In friendship, you are considerate and compromising. Your ideal careers are: business, research, counseling, promotion, and speaking. You will leave your mark on the world with discoveries, new information, and teaching people to dream.

The Birth Order Predictor

I want to be the girl that makes you say "She's the prettiest girl in the whole world. and the reason she's pretty is because she's mine."