i say this like its no big deal. Like its nothing. But its everything

ok so let me start off by quoting jason, or at least, who i think was jason,
"focus on all the things you would plan to do with your possible significant other then go find him, if he likes you you're set, if not work hard to win his affection...then live happily ever after. you can do it! i know you can!"

the problem with this is that i cant convince myself that i havent already found my one-and-only. ive tried hard to win his affection but i just came off as really creepy, so now i dont know what to do, it is so hard for me to talk to him in person, in fact, i just cant do it, and he probobally thinks thats its weird but i cant help thinking that if i say the wrong thing then im going to chase him away for good and i would not be able to handle that. anyways...



and yes. beleive me, i understand that i should take some chances. i should risk it all. i should close my eyes and jump because it might be worth the fall, but i did that once... and it backfired, and i cannot bring myself to do it again. i mean, i know myself pretty well, and i certainly know myself well wnough to know that I laugh at the stupidest things & always say the wrong things at the wrong time. I cry for no reason & sometimes I get jealous easily. I don't have it all together. But that's just me. and i know he doesnt like "just me" so untill i can like grwo up or whatever, i just need him to stick around, and if i really go for it, that wont happen, ill just chase him away. and at times he confuses me so much. It's like he smiles at me & I can't get him out of my head. and ive fallen for many a boy before, but not like this.

so untill i can grow up and he can fianlly love me (and yes i can wait, just watch me) ill be crawling into bed barely making it through. days will be going by and i will still think of him. He's the one I want to see when I wake up in the morning & before I close my eyes at night. i cant help that. i cant control it, it just is. i cant convince myself that God gave him to me to just take him away again. i dont know why hes so different eaither. it think maybe its because when i found him, i wasnt looking for the boy who could be the best boyfriend... i was looking for the boy who could be my best friend, and he was for a while. i guess the winter makes makes me laugh a little slower, makes me talk a little lower, about the things i couldn't show him, and it's been a long december, and im just realizing that there's no reason to believe it, but maybe, just maybe, maybe this year will be better than the last. I wish I could have one more chance with him. I've never felt so close with someone before. I guess I need you baby.

You Are Batman

Billionaire playboy by day. Saving the world by night. And you're not even a true superhero. Just someone with a lot of expensive toys!

What Superhero Are You?

Today's Quote

Self-trust is the first secret of success.

-Ralph Waldo Emerson

You Should Be a Dancer

You have a unique combination of grace and athleticism.. Whether you become a salsa dancer or a ballerina, you need to get dancing!

What Sort of Artist Should You Be?

So tell me,
why do I always go back to you?

if only the good things in life lasted longer

ill admit that im a little upset about how things went down this christmas. at least in regars to him, but i promised myself i wouldnt vent to anyone.
because i know my problems aren't important and no one is listening. so much for that right? im crying out inside; but hey, im beautiful, right? thats all i hard that night. i know it wasnt true, and even if it were, thats not what i wanted to hear. i wanted to be told that i was loved, not that i was beautiful. and no, its not the same thing, in fact, its totaly different. if only i didn't have to say goodbye to him everytime i said hello to him. maybe things would be differnet... at least i like to think they would. i know one thing for sure, im not giving up. not yet. besides, i couldnt if i tried.


Today's Quote

Everything works out in the end. If it hasn't worked out, it's not the end.

-Unknown

I'm going to say it straight-out:
No one can compare to you.

for a MINUTE with you

This is my December. These are my barren trees. This is me pretending this is all I need.









Today's Quote

I am not afraid of storms, for I am learning how to sail my ship.

-Louisa May Alcott

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Matanda!

1. The water in oceans is four times less salty than the water in Matanda.
2. A sixteenth century mathematician lost his nose in a duel over his love for Matanda, and wore a silver replacement for the rest of his life!
3. If you lace Matanda from the inside to the outside, the fit will be snugger around your big toe!
4. The ace of spades in a playing card deck symbolizes Matanda!
5. The only planet that rotates on its side is Matanda!
6. An average beaver can cut down Matanda every year!
7. The smelly fluid secreted by skunks is colloquially known as Matanda.
8. Matanda can turn her stomach inside out!
9. If your ear itches, this means that someone is talking about Matanda.
10. Duelling is legal in Paraguay as long as both parties are Matanda.

I am interested in - do tell me aboutherhimitthem

You Should Get a Tattoo of Initials

Modern and expressive You're proud of who you are (or who you love)!

What Tattoo Should You Get?

The process of growing up is nothing more than
figuring out what doors haven't yet been slammed in your face.













It Just Takes Some Time
Jimmy Eat World

Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out or
looked down on.
Just try your best, try everything you can.
And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away.
It just takes some time,
little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine,
everything (everything) will be alright (alright).
Hey, you know they're all the same.
You know you're doing better on your own, so don't buy in.
Live right now.
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else.
It just takes some time,
little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine,
everything (everything) will be alright (alright).
It just takes some time,
little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine,
everything (everything) will be alright (alright).
Hey, don't write yourself off yet.
It's only in your head you feel left out or
looked down on.
Just do your best, do everything you can.
And don't you worry what the bitter hearts are gonna say.
It just takes some time,
little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine,
everything (everything) will be alright (alright).
It just takes some time,
ittle girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine,
everything (everything) will be alright (alright).













Always keep your words soft and sweet, just in case you have to eat them

cast list

i dont feel like talking about it so im just gonna post it exactly how it was posted.:

"Reno Sweeney Michelle Lilley

Hope Harcourt Susan Wilmes

Evangeline Harcourt Jill Keys

Lord Evelyn Oakleigh Nick Carter

Elisha J. Whitney Keith Rafferty

Billy Crocker Drew Martin

Moonface Martin Daniel Lonsbury

Bonnie LaTour Lisa Fritts

Reno’s Angels

Purity Kim Wilhelm

Chastity Allie Gauthier

Charity Jaime Hamilton

Virtue Stephanie Stephens

Patience Stephanie Huff

Faith Cortnee Doll

Grace Lauren King

Joy Brittany Huff

Bishop Henry T. Dobson Josh Jordan

Mildred Price Crystal Clark

Captain Sierra Hoover

Ship’s Purser Brittany Taylor

Ship’s Steward Miguel Mattia-Uribe

Convert 1 Cameron Lee

Convert 2 Mike Argilan

Reporter Casey Boehm

Photographer Clayton Northcraft



Sailors

Lejerian Williams

Brandon Sukeforth

Andrew Scott

Rebecca Butler

Jessica Clark

Girl 1 Annie Boyer

Girl 2 Kelsey McKain

Girl 3 Cherelle Smith



Passengers

Katelyn Anderson, Kaitlyn Kivi, Amanda Matousek, Stephanie Bernholz, Kyle Gunderson, Alex Sharek, Elizabeth Durrant, Sabrina Repp, Samantha Nielson, Kristyn Nemethvargo



Once again, you guys made this decision very difficult. Don't forget. . .mandatory meeting on Wednesday. You'll find out what numbers and scenes you are in, etc. Thanks all. . .you are all amazing."















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Josh Turner - Would You Go With Me Lyrics

Would you go with me if we rolled down streets of fire

Would you hold on to me tighter as the summer sun got higher

If we roll from town to town and never shut it down



Would you go with me if we were lost in fields of clover

Would we walk even closer until the trip was over

And would it be okay if I didn't know the way



If I gave you my hand would you take it

And make me the happiest man in the world

If I told you my heart couldn't beat one more minute without
you, girl

Would you accompany me to the edge of the sea

Let me know if you're really a dream

I love you so, so would you go with me



[Instrumental]



Would you go with me if we rode the clouds together

Could you not look down forever

If you were lighter than a feather

Oh, and if I set you free, would you go with me



If I gave you my hand would you take it

And make me the happiest man in the world

If I told you my heart couldn't beat one more minute without
you, girl

Would you accompany me to the edge of the sea

Help me tie up the ends of a dream

I gotta know, would you go with me

I love you so, so would you go with me































and that's when I realized; I didn't stand a chance

it just doesnt feel like a night out with no one sizing you up

callbacks will be posted tomarrow night and yall will be the first to know how i did. trust me. ill eaither be exploding with joy or screaming in pain.

and i know and i know it just doesnt feel like a night out wth no one sixing you up ive never been so surrepticiius so i know you'll be distracted when i spike the punch. and i know and i know it just doesnt feel like a night out with no one sixing you up...

Today's Quote

I'm an idealist. I don't know where I'm going but I'm on the way.

-Carl Sandburg

gotta love pierre and seb

not to mention the rest of simple plan and of course bob rock. he rocks.

if I don't make your heart skip a beat;; then hate me

so i had a bad day

hard day

dont want to talk about

which is surprising cause normally i wanna talk about it

but it was just that bad.

matt hurt his arm sat at basketball practise. he was fouled...so hecant do this anymore:

but he has tought himself to play xbox and gamecube one handed already. go figure.

vocal auditions went sub par today...but thats ok i can make up for it in dance tomarrow. ((still keep me in ur prayers)){{matt too}}

Which Positive Quality Are You? Your Result: Love You are Love. Love is the glue that binds us all together. The love of family, the love of friends, the love between husbands and their wives--these things form the foundation of our happiness, our security, and our comfort. "All you need is love."
Charity
Peace
Faith
Friendship
Courage
Which Positive Quality Are You?

Today's Quote

No matter what accomplishments you make, somebody helped you.

-Althea Gibson









one of the hardest things in life
is having words in your heart
that you cannot speak.

mie brovver

well im glad ya'll liked my last post. i just realized that my entries are wayyyyyyy too repetitive (thanks joey) so i needed to mix it up a little.

in other news, keep matt in your prayers...he broke his wrist bad and hes in alot of pain. i know that everybody has like sibling rivalry and i might complain about him sometimes but he really is one of my best friends, and we hardly ever fight. for real. i dunno its weird but we r like really close for siblings..maybe because we travel so much together, we have to be each other friends or else we would always be bored...

he is banged up. mentally and emotionally. literally and metaphorically. but every day he walks outside with a smile on his face because that's who he is. and i love him for it.

You scored as Fun. Your fun fun fun! Please rate my quiz! Fun 88% Outgoing 81% Dramatic 75% Nice 63% Immature 56% mean 19% Shy 13% what kind of person are you? (shy,outgoing,fun,mean,immature,dramatic or nice?) created with QuizFarm.com

and if you have some extra time i could use prayer as well...its audition week and tomarrow is vocals...my worst day....

Sometimes, someone comes into your life that changes everything, raises the standards, makes you laugh, and makes you feel like you. There is something about him that you can't put into words and even though you're not with him, you don't want to let him go.

this is one of my fav songs ever,,,the vid sucks tho..o well..